Hey sweeties.
I'm in such a pickle in life at the moment.
I started the childcare job I mentioned in a previous post yesterday which was meant to be for four days a week, finally I thought I'd be able to sign off of the dole. Yet, they say I'm needed 2 days a week.
Bollocks.
I hate, hate, hate being on the dole.
So my search for a job that's 16 hours a week continues. Why 16? I need a job to fit around my part time degree.
If I can't find a job within the next month I can't go to uni, which I've had my heart set on for this past year. I can't go because I only get my course paid for, no bursaries because it's a part time course not full time.
Which completely sucks.
What's even worse is that I've completely fallen out with my mam because of this as she never wanted me to go to uni.
So for a few days I'm staying at Kates which I'm so grateful. Her mam and sister too, they're truly like my adopted family. I'm so lucky to have them as they're the only people who I can really turn to.
A lot like Sirius and James Potters relationship.
So for now I'm trying to decided what's for the best.
1. Not to do the Foundation Degree and concentrate on getting a job.
2. Do an apprenticeship.
3. Concentrate on getting a job and re-apply for uni next year, which leaves me time to get placements in a nursery for the mean time.
I know which ever option I choose will be best for me, but it still feels poop!
It's worse when one of your parents live on the other side of the world too.
So for now I have a lot of thinking to do whilst watching the beautiful divers at the Olympics.
*Cough Cough Chris Mears*
